21

i'm 21. it rocks. i had a few drinks today...in public places. sweet. disneyland is awesome. life = great

love love love

i love disneyland.

i'm effing exhausted today but so happy. it was about 80 degrees here and the park was pretty empty. we did sooooooooooooooo much today the longest line we had to wait in was only about 30 minutes...and that was only for like 2 rides. everything else we practically walked right on to.

TOMORROW IS MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YAY!!!

Jessie and I are leaving tomorrow morning!!!!! it's finally here!!!!!! i'm SOOOOOOOOOOoooooooooooooooo excited!


oh and i feel a million times better today. took lots of vitamins and what not. feel great today!

sickly

i don't feel real great right now. my ears kinda hurt and the back of my throat hurts. if i'm getting sick right before my trip i'm gonna be very mad. i want to feel good in disneyland. not like this. so i'm loading up on vitamin c and lots of water. of course if i do still feel this way come disney time...i do believe that disneyland is the magical cure all and i'll feel great. :)

anyways...work is starting to pick up again thank god. the days were getting to be so long and boring-even the days i didn't stay for 8 hours! it was bad. school has started and i have homework again. :( oh well. at least i have my eyes set on a goal now-makes it easier.

i like someone that's off limits and it blows. :-/ well it's good that i have whatever it is i have...its fun and keeps me in a good mood.

i love Kings of Leon...i really think they have climbed in to my top 5 bands.

Who's the best??? EAST COAST!!!

12-11 in favor of the east. we kick ass. fun game to watch though. and i love the fact that it went to the shoot out. so intense and exciting.

my favorite

i got to hang out with Lily tonight. it was wonderful. i can't describe how good it was to see her. i missed her SO much. she kept showing me everything and we played with nearly ALL her toys. i love her so much. i am just so glad i finally got to see her again. it was awesome. i'm so happy right now.

AGAIN?!?!?!

HE'S MISSING THE ALL STAR GAME AGAIN??????? WHAT THE FUCK??? A KNEE INJURY?????? ST. LOUIS IS NO CROSBY.

OMG. I'm so pissed. i've been looking forward to watching the all star game all effing month. UGH.

FUCKING LAME.

Pens 3 - Rangers 0

look at my boys start to make their comeback. 3 wins in the last 4 games. And today's win puts us in 8th place in the Eastern Conference. We're back in the playoff running and we will only climb from here. Crosby is back in after a minor scare. Whitney is back in. And Gonchar will be back in soon.

West Coast, be prepared to be be beat at the All Star Game next weekend. My penguins make up a good portion of the team. :)

new favorite show

i spent all day watching season 1 on Netflix and i'm about to start season 2. i'm obsessed.

Battlestar...

I just finished watching the season premier of the final season of Battlestar Gallactica and they revealed who the final cylon is...but now i'm super confused about another character because i thought FOR SURE they were one...but they apparently aren't...unless there are more models than the 12 which brings up so many more questions.

i'm a nerd.

this song is so sexy....

song of the day....for right now anyways

Meeting Again For The First Time

Barely able to keep the lids open
At times I might think I need the rest
but who would want to go back there?
It's already hard enough to say I need it.
bad memories and good times.
Keep me from believing that I can still jump off.
No longer, no longer the same.
you grow accustomed to seeing the sun in a different location.
Standing still becomes a chore.
Anxious to get the pavement moving.
The easy solution to this and everything else is to move on.
It comes equipped with the last word.
they find ways to drag you along
and dismantle what you created.
It's already hard enough to say I need it
Bad memories and good times.
Keep me from believing that I can still jump off.
No longer, no longer the same.
You grow accustomed to seeing the sun in a different location.
Standing still becomes a chore.
Anxious to get the pavement moving.
Happiness is not having to lie on the floor dead alone.

school stuff

i saw a counselor today at school and started to kinda figure out what i'm going to do. this is my plan...for now. haha.

At JC: complete the CSU Gen ED requirements (For this i need about 21 more credits). Get AA in Philosophy/Humanities or possibly Pyschology(Need about12-18 more credits...but these credits can also come from the 21 others i need...). Do as much as is offered to count towards my BA in English (only about 5 classes that will count are offered here)

At SJSU: Get BA in English. Possibly do a year of this in some far away country that kicks ass.

so I'm looking at least another year and a half to two years here in Napa. After that I'm really leaning towards San Jose State and then maybe something in England to finish it up.

what will i do with these degrees? i have no clue. haha. no i'm kidding, as of now I want to be a highschool english teacher. If that sticks-who knows?! but that's the plan as of now. No matter what i do these degrees will mean making more money cuz i'm obviously smart. haha.

why God is it only Tuesday???

It feels like the work week should already be over...but it's NOT. oh well. the rest of the week should be better considering it's minus one of the most annoying people ever. work is always more fun when i work with my boys. trash talking each other all day is so fun...and it always ends with some joke about nick's g/f. it's perfect. lol

i've been bruising extremely easily lately. it's strange. and some of the bruises are slightly embarassing! hah

i went to yoga last night, it felt awesome but the room has two complete walls of mirrors...i'm now incredibly body conscious and not feeling as terrific as i was. my hips are very large.....and my stomach but the worst part is it's not all the way around and it doesn't hang over or anything...it sticks out. so...basically...it looks like a baby bump. NOT COOL WITH ME. it only encourages me to keep up with my crunches though. hopefully soon i'll like what i see in the mirrors a lot more. i don't know if it's just cuz i've lost weight around my ribs and back (basically everywhere on my torso EXCEPT my stomach!) or if they really have gotten bigger, but my boobs have been looking larger these days which is utterly fantastic. haha. i think it's just because of the weight loss because i haven't needed a new bra size or anything. it's awesome though! ...and i now realize how horribly vain this paragraph makes me sound. lol. oh well.

i think i've been feeling a little more stress the past few days because i've gotten a couple heart palpitations again. i hadn't had any in a long time and then i got one yesterday and i got one today. i think it's because of everything that's been on my mind lately is starting to be a lot. my brother being the main thing. haven't heard much from him since last week, which i THINK is a good sign. the counselors have said that he's participating in everything and he's been ON TIME for everything too. it kind of blows me (and my family) away. it's funny too because the 2nd or 3rd day he was up there his laptop broke, and he can't have his phone there so that means he's without technology for the most part there. and shockingly enough, he seems to be dealing with it quite well! i'm trying to not get my hopes up about anything, but i REALLY want this to work.

well i'm pooped and going to relax a little before i go to the gym... toodles.

getting so close

i just need to say how effing excited I am about my disneyland trip. and yes, the fact that i'm turning 21. The trip will be WAY fun. it's too bad i couldn't bring more friends a long. that'd be awesome. but as it stands, this will be AWESOME. i love disneyland.

and when i get back you can bet your asses i'll be going to a restaurant/bar with my friends and celebrating the fact that i can finally legally go out and drink with them! :)

17 days until Disneyland, 19 days until birthday!!!!!!!!

Starting over

For my friends who care and would like to follow what's going on in my life, i'll post here more than myspace because i think this is a little more personal...i have another one-but it's extremely personal.  

today is another kick back day but slightly more productive than yesterday. Yesterday I didn't get out of bed until about 3. I woke up around 11:30 or so and then finished my book (Dead Until Dark) and then went back to sleep. Haha. Very lazy. But i did do ALL my laundry and then washed my car too. so i didn't waste the WHOLE day. today i'm out of bed much earlier-but who knows what i'll do today. I might go see Don and Rosey's new house later. It's in Suisun. They're so excited, and i'm excited for them. 

so my current musical obsession is Kings Of Leon. I love them. This song rocks...