...but you know I'm yours

new new new!

I got a new piece done today and couldn't be happier with it. Big symbol for my life now...I'm thrilled it came out so beautifully. I'll put a better picture up when I have one...

Giddy

*highest pitch squeal you can imagine coming from somewhere in my body*

FRIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEND!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M SO EFFING HAPPY FOR YOU!!!!!!!! I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


love you!!!!

just another brick in the wall...

been listening to a lot of Pink Floyd lately...Stevie Ray Vaughn too. May seem like a strange combo, but to me it's my childhood...but grown up.

Had a wonderful weekend. Was low key but amazing still. Met Willi's ex g/f, katie , and she took us to lunch at Bouchon which was delicious. I REALLY wanted to go to the bakery for some dessert but they were pretty packed. oh well, there's always another time. Katie was nice. I felt somewhat uncomfortable at first, but then stopped caring and enjoyed myself. I spent the majority of the rest of the day sleeping. haha. I haven't slept that much in one day in a while. It felt good.

Before all this, on Saturday, was Nicole's bridal shower. Had a pretty good time. It's always nice to see Ashley, I don't see her nearly enough. Went with Kamecia (which btw, thanks for the hair do! always love it) And Rosey was there too which was neat. Nicole was super cute. I got a bit tipsy, but I felt tense when I first got there so the couple drinks helped. Later that night I finished Dexter season two, let me say that it is AMAZING. I can't wait to start watching season 3.

Waiting for my boo to get off. Sometimes I hate being on such a different schedule. We're going to Washington in August for a trip with his family. I'm pretty excited about it. I get to meet his parents, they already love me- so I'm ecstatic to make them actually know me and love me. haha. Definitely looking forward to that. But there is so much going on before that I can hardly take it. The next few months are going to be super busy.

YAY!!!

Weekend time! my favorite time of the week.

know why? :)

knots

I have a couple knots in my back the past few days that Willi will work out for me, and then BAM the next day they're back. I hate my back. HATE IT.

Anyways. almost Friday. I am beginning to truly hate the weekdays. they go by so slow and I am tired of school and work. Speaking of school, I just took my mid term for history and I think I did decently. A bunch of people left way before me (keep in mind it's an essay based test, not multiple choice) so I'm thinking that's a good sign-I had more to say. And now I have a bunch of homework I need to finish for psychology before tomorrow night. I'd prefer to get it out of the way tonight so #1 I don't run into technically problems with the website and #2 I can spend time with willi- and my boo CHELSIE!!! I'm so excited to see her. Things better go through, I miss her.

Supposedly going to dinner with my brother and aunt this evening. Should be fun. i have been starving ALL day, and it's been that horrible nauseating hunger for the past like 4 hours. it's terrible.

work sucked today. I'm pretty sure everyday at work has sucked for the past bit of time though...

i can't wait to run away.

head burstage

do you ever hear something and it just makes your head want to explode at how insanely ridiculous it is? and at the same time it breaks your heart because it's hurtful and makes no sense? I'm having one of those moments and just want to crawl in bed with willi and forget about it. forget about them.

i'm sorry it's come to writing you all off. but i don't need that crap in my life.

Epic Weekend...

This weekend was absolutely amazing. It really all started on Thursday when I found I would not need to come in to work on Friday. After work I went to school and then I hung out with two of my favorite girls (Kamecia and Lily). We had pizza and had good girl talk and watched The Office. I love hanging out with Kamecia and I really need to do it more. So after I left Kamecia's I went home and got all cute and around 11 or so I drove up to St. Helena and went to Anna's Cantina. Willi was going to meet me there when he got off work, but in the meantime Ben and Kristin were there so I hung around them for the short time when Willi wasn't there yet. I had an effing blast there. I actually danced...for a long time. Granted I had drinks in me...but still, I had so much fun that I could probably dance again WITHOUT being tipsy. haha. We all stayed until they closed and then Willi and I proceeded to go to Paul's house but we had pressing matters to attend to and didn't stay long. hehe. Paul is so funny, he gave me a hug goodbye (so this means 2 of Willi's friends like me now! score! LMAO)

So on to Friday...Slept in hella late. it was glorious. The "morning" was pretty chill except for roommate drama, but we just hung around the house until I had to go to my doctor's appointment. When I got back Willi and I drove up to Santa Rosa to give my brother some money from my mom. When we finally got back in town we drove through St. Helena again and stopped by Paul's to pick some miner's lettuce from his "backyard." Oh and I forgot that we stopped by the cia and "borrowed" some veggies...in Ben's words it was "sexy baby fennel." When we were done being gatherers we went and picked up Ben and Kristin who had been passed out, so it took a bit for them to get shit together. We then proceeded to Whole Foods and we were there until closing trying to pick what to have for dinner. The boys finally decided to roast some whole chickens. We went to Safeway and got the means to make some cocktails. We FINALLY got back home and the boys started cooking (at like 11 pm) Kristin made us all Vodka cranberry drinks and us girls played some intense games of speed until dinner was ready. Some pretty epic pictures were taken of the four of us. Ben, Kristin, and I were plastered, Willi not so much, but he still knows how to have fun. heh. We finally started eating dinner at like 12:15 or so. It was pretty funny because we all started out eating our salads with our forks and finished it by eating with our fingers and moved on to our chicken with our fingers as well. It was that delicious. :) after dinner kristin and I passed out in the living room (conveniently in time for clean up). we had some red wine and dark chocolate that we were all supposed to go eat out in the vineyard, but Kristin and I were done for. So the boys frolicked in the vineyard for a couple hours while we were at home fast asleep.

Saturday morning my alarm went off at 8:15...disgustingly early. But Willi and I got up and got ready and took Ben and Kristin back (oh and ps...this short time in the morning was the only time I saw Ben sober this entire weekend). We then proceeded to pick up my uncle and drive him up to Roseville. By the time we finally got there I thought I was going to be so so SO sick. Willi drove home and I slept it off (sorry boo. heh). But I think he was secretly trying to wake me up, or at least get me back for sleeping because every time he approached traffic he would slam on the brakes a little too eagerly and my stomach would suddenly be in my throat, ready to be regurgitated. He says he didn't mean too....yeah. RIGHT. lol. So when we got back in to town we found that Ben and Kristin were in St. Helena for some reason, not ready to go to the city like they should have been. So we went and got them so they could go back to the house and change. On the way though, we stopped in a field of mustard and took a bunch of fun pictures. We eventually headed out to the city for our adventure. We decided to go in to the Lower Haight area where Idle Hand Tattoo shop is. Kristin and I were able to get walk in appointments. She got some cute angel wings on her foot and I finally got my "mom" sparrow. I decided against getting the "mom" and "dad" banners beneath each because I feel they wouldn't fit properly with the angle of the birds. It looks phenomenal, way better than the first one. This guy's lines are really great. He was definitely a bit of a digger though and there were spots that were just extremely painful, but I had Willi's hand to hold so I got through it fine. The dude finished in like 20 minutes. it was awesome. And I have an appointment scheduled for the 28th to come and get another piece done on my arm. I'm stoked. So anyways, after the tattoos we kind of went separate ways with Ben and Kristin because they were meeting some friends and going to Bourbon and Branch and Willi and I didn't feel like dropping $12/drink. We went up Haight to the awesome Hooka bar and hung out for a couple hours. They had belly dancers and it was awesome. So much fun.





Finally Sunday came. Woke up at a decent hour. Ben and Kristin came and said their good byes and had breakfast with us. Then Willi and I spent the rest of the day hanging out in his room listening to music mostly until I had to take him to work. It was a truly incredible weekend. I had a ridiculous amount of fun.

early weekend fun

I did not have to work today, soooo I went out last night to Anna's in St. Helena to meet Willi after work with Ben and Kristen. I had so much fun, it was nuts. I hadn't had that kind of fun in SUCH a long time. I hadn't gone dancing in over two years. It's fun to have someone that will dance with you.

i'll write more about this weekend later.......

You're my good feeling

I forgot how much I absolutely love Something Corporate. Maybe because there was about two years where someone never let me listen to them (amongst a few other bands I forgot I loved...). regardless....Go listen to this song...it's one of my favorites by them.

http://www.jango.com/stations/118781406/tunein?song_id=105102

Tonight I watch the lights go out in your house
Wondering how I could get so deep
And you can still get to sleep
In vain I blame my trembling on the cold air
And I can't hide that I relied on you
Like yellow does on blue

And you're my good feeling, I'm kneeling
Inside her room she paints me blue
And you are my reason for breathing
Inside her room she paints me blue

Atlanta started raining on me
And teenage love was underground
Tonight I break the surface
Atlanta started raining on me

A New York girl was claiming me
And naming me
And destiny get nervous and

And you're my good feeling, I'm kneeling
Inside her room she paints me blue
And you are my reason for breathing
Inside her room she paints me blue, again

And you're my good feeling, I'm kneeling
Inside her room she paints me blue
And you are my reason for breathing
Inside her room she paints me blue, again

Atlanta started raining on me
on me
Atlanta started raining on me
on me

meet me in outer space

Weekend after weekend, I just keep having an incredible time.

This weekend started off early as I got to leave work early for a dentist appointment. Then I got to see my wonderful friend kamecia and she put me back to normal (I have dark hair again). Unfortunately a bit allergic to that too...we'll figure it out one day. Anyways, after I was done in Sonoma I went and got Willi and we went to dinner at my parents. Kay, Tom, and Steve were there too...so basically it was a whole family thing. It was fun. After dinner Willi and I played Life with my mom. haha. Willi won, but I refrained from the throwing the board at him-I'm obviously growing as a person. lol.

Satruday was an incredibly gorgeous day so we decided to go to the beach. It was just as gorgeous over there, just a bit more windy. It was so nice to go out there, I hadn't been in quite some time and the last beach trip was weird. When we went home Willi made some pizza and we watched Forgetting Sarah Marshall-but I fell asleep before my favorite part :( We spent this morning watching Weeds and just hanging out. When I came home I watched an episode of Dexter and fell asleep. I wish I wouldn't have because I really wanted to hang out with Kamecia but I couldn't help it. And now I need to work on my history paper.

I'm excited to meet Willi's friend Ben this week. I haven't met a lot of his friends yet, I actually don't think I've met any that are outside of work. So it should be cool.



Meet me in outer space
WE could spend the night;
Watch the earth come up.
I've grown tired of that place;
Won't you come with me?
WE could start again.

How do you do it?
Make me feel like I do.
How do you do it?
It's better than I ever knew.

Meet me in outer space.
I will hold you close, if you're afraid of heights.
I need you to see this place, it might be the only way
That I can show you how
It feels to be inside of you.

How do you do it?
Make me feel like I do.
How do you do it?
It's better than I ever knew.
How do you do it?
Make me feel like I do.

You are stellar x 2

How do you do it?
Make me feel like I do.
How do you do it?
It's better than I ever knew.
How do you do it?
Make me feel like I do.
How do you do it?
Make me feel like I do

pysch

I'm thinking more and more that Pyschology might end up being my major. Somewhat ironically, this means that to get a better career in the field, I'll need more schooling than originally desired (i'm sure you all know my absolute love for school....). But at this point I'm very interested in it and a profession in the field would allow me to help people, something I've always subconsciously found myself doing. Nearly all the relationships I've gotten into over the years have been with males with messed up family lives and sometimes seriously traumatic experiences. Something I've always longed to help them all with. Then with everything that my family has dealt with in the addictions department...well that's something else I've always felt the need to understand and correct. The more I think about it, the more I think that it's the right direction for me to move in. We'll see how it goes I guess...

graphic

I have these really graphic and slightly disturbing dreams when I watch too much Dexter in one sitting. I think yesterday may have been too much...but the show is SO awesome.

Jean Grey from X-files...

Big surprise here: my weekend was fantastic again.

First off was dinner on Friday. Willi made chicken tacos for my parents and they loved them. I did too. They were delicious...but don't ask me if they're better than my mothers...they're both delicious...I can not compare the two. My mom and I gave him a hard time about not having read Dr. Suess books. After we were done at my parents we drove out to Scandia in Rohnert Park and played Mini Golf...and air hockey, skee ball, and video games of course. They closed earlier than the website said though so we didn't get to stay as long as planned unfortunately...because I was on my way to kicking his ass at air hockey ;) We came back to yountville and went to the bar and I saw Eric Camera. Spoke to him for a moment which was nice because I haven't seen him in FOREVER. but it was quick and somewhat awkward feeling. oh well, I don't care. If that's how his friends are going to be, that's how they're going to be. We enjoyed the rest of our night and stayed up far too late considering we were supposed to wake up "early".

Saturday was wondercon!! We left the house late and hit some traffic on the way there and subsequently missed the Watchmen panel-but we would have had to get there super fucking early to even get into the panel anyways...I'm not too upset about it. The movie comes out on Friday. I'm reading the book finally. Anyways, back to wondercon...we met up with Kamecia and Kyle and I think he liked them a lot, but I mean honestly- what's not to like? heh. Saw some interesting folks, like the 6 foot 4 tranny dressed as Jean Grey. We made fun of Willi for not knowing things because we're geeks. We watched the Star Trek panel and I was STOKED to see Zachary Quinto...I love him so much. I'm not Trek fan...but I must say that movie looks incredible. We had to leave early because of Don's housewarming party. I would have liked to have stayed longer, but oh well. I had a good time for the few hours we were there. Don's party was nice, Nick, however, did not show up and I was pretty disappointed about that. We stopped at Scandia on our way back into town and played some more air hockey and I was obviously having an off day and lost every single game. lol. We then had dinner at Zuzu's which was pretty good. He made me try some fish. I ate the whole thing, it was actually somewhat tasty. As much as I enjoyed the food, I wish we had sat in Melissa's section because our service was pretty terrible...The dessert Melissa sent us was fantastic. When we finally got home I was pooped. The day was so long. I passed out pretty quickly.

Today was a super lazy day. After I got home I took a nap for like 3 hours...it was awesome. And I even got a tid bit of homework done. :)