blahness

So as some of you may know, about a week and a half ago I sprianed my ankle (retarded fall...). Well today it started hurting way worse than it has for the past week. I started hobbling again. 1800 MGs of ibuprofin in one day and the pain is still pretty outrageous. I just want to spend one whole day either sitting with my foot up or just laying in bed. standing on it all day and walking on it is obviously only making it worse. I hate my clumsy-ness.
I feel like I need a vacation soon. august just can't come quick enough...

WOW

I expect there is going to be a good amount of trading going on this summer for the Sharks. That's just sad. FIRST ROUND...apparently being #1 in the league doesn't mean enough when you still can't bring it in the playoffs. well...I guess I'll have to wait another year for my Pens vs. Sharks final. Anyways....GO PENGUINS!! take it all the way again!!!!

smash smash smash!

This week at work I feel like I'm going insane. Don is gone and both the copy department and mail department are all on me. I think I'm doing quite well honestly, but it's a lot to keep up with. Monday was the day from hell though, every machine I touched broke it seemed like. The service tech for the big copier had to come out and I had to call the service tech for the inserter to walk me through how to fix that machine too. it was a LONG day. Tuesday was super long and the color copier kept jamming because one of the CSR's needed a double sided piece on 88lb stock...I realize most of you don't know what that means...but just know that it's a HEAVY card stock and that machine does NOT like to run it...especially not double sided. So for the 150 sheets of that I had to run, I stopped to unjam the machine every 2-4 pieces. I wanted to take that machine outside and "office space" it...yeah...you know what i mean. However I feel that way about almost every piece of equipment in that building. There has been so much shit to do it's crazy. If it was in the hands of 2 people, like normal, it would be slow probably...but I'm the only one and I've got a lot on my plate. However, both John (co-owner) and Ed (production manager) have told me multiple times that I'm doing a great job and they tease that they don't need to bring Don back...so I guess that's a good sign. So tell me then, where's the raise?? I learned Copy in 3 weeks and am flying solo this week...I think I deserve a little extra somethin somethin! hahaha. At least I've been getting full hours this week. that's a nice change.

I made Willi some carrot cupcakes last night. They taste good...but I think they could have been better. Definitely needed to be more moist...must adjust recipe. And my frosting didn't taste cream cheesey enough. There will be another attempt soon. But first I must make a cake for my Grandparent's 50th Anniversary bbq my dad is throwing this weekend. Not sure how to decorate it yet. my grandma is very traditional so I can't make it all cutesy and shit...so I'll think of something. Bleh...it also means family time with my dad's side of the family. don't get me wrong, I love my family-they're family...I am just more excited to spend time with the other side...or at least half of the other side. lol. I was more a fan of the family when I was the youngest cousin...kids...bleh. well I guess they're not all "kids" anymore...but they're all under 16 and in my book, that makes you a kid. Willi will be there with me for a while before he goes into to work though.

This week is wearing me out...I need a good weekend. Maybe go see a movie Friday night...

it's been a while...

I haven't posted in a while...in case any of you faithful readers are curious, life is still wonderful. :)

work is lame, school is lame, but everything outside of that is great. willi is amazing. we don't have to directly deal with stupid drama anymore and I've taken measures to cut certain people out of my life that were causes of said drama. And I must say, it feels wonderful. I'm sorry that Willi still deals with these people on a day to day basis, but hopefully it's not as bad anymore.

The baby shower is rapidly approaching, but I think Nicole (the new MRS. BLAZER!!) and I have a pretty good handle on it. The location has yet to be set, but it's one of two places so we'll figure it out soon. We will be sending invites/e-vites soon. I think it will be a lot of fun, and super cute! I'm very much so looking forward to make the cupcakes with Nicole. :)

I was definitely sad to miss Nicole's wedding but I felt reassured of my decision when I found out all the trash talking that took place amongst a few folks when I left the shower. And I know Nick and Nicole were sad, but at the same time I know they understood why I didn't go. I feel like everyone in the bridal party was able to have a better time with me not being there. I'm hoping that we won't have to deal with the same drama when it comes to Kamecia's baby shower (and wedding for that matter!)

On a somewhat related note I just wanted to state this for a final time in new words... I am extremely happy with where I am in life, who I am in love with, and who I am friends with. If you're not accepting of this, that's fine. If you want to go and say one thing to my face and a completely different thing to everyone else, then do NOT consider yourself to be one of my friends, and don't be surprised when I cut you out of my life. We're all grown ups and I'm done with the drama. If that means that I can count my friends on less than two hands, then so be it, at least I know that those people are going to love and support me through thick and thin. I know who those people are now, and I could not be more thankful of them.

meeting the family...

so i had an awesome weekend this past weekend. I went with Willi down to Morgan HIll and Castro Valley to meet all his Mom's siblings and their families. I had a really great time and was thoroughly exhausted when we finally got home saturday night. Sunday was a wonderful lazy day, we even played frisbee at the park. a whole weekend with him not working was pretty awesome.

he's all moved into his new place and we're just arranging (and rearranging) everything and starting to unpack. it's brought up a conversation or two that has me eagerly looking forward to the future. :)

got to hang out with the bestie and her fiancee on sunday night. that was fun. i'm very glad that willi likes them. they're like family. bbqs at their house make me think of summer and I can't believe how friggin close it is. i love the summertime...even though it doesn't mean the same thing as it did as a kid. i still enjoy the warm summer nights and hanging out with my friends. and this summer i'm taking a trip that i'm more than excited about. so yeah...summer is awesome.

well i'm tired and i think it shows in my writing...i'm going to nap until my boo gets off work. :)

my love

you are my inspiration. you are what makes me feel young. you are what gets me going. you are the one who makes me smile. you make my heart jump (and not in the crazy stressed out way-have you noticed I haven't been having heart issues??) you are my logic. you are my spontaneity. you are my calm. you are my crazy. you are my breathe. you are my anchor. you are the hand I hold when I feel pain. you are the ears i tell my all to. you are the lips that i pass my everything to in a kiss. you are the eyes i find my heart in. you are the arms in which i fall.

you are one of the greatest things to ever come into my life.

i am crazy for you.

you are my love.



*and you are most definitely my edward cullen*




ps. sorry for the sappiness...but my heart needed a place to overflow for a minute...